Worth Writing

I had fun with this 6 word story word prompt. 

Her decision making skills were backwords.

She would let go too soon.

And then hang on too long.

Anticipation was a form of agony.

Leaving too early; staying too late.

Not wanting much, but expecting much.

Loving who couldn’t love her back.

She was defenceless against the defensive.

She forgave the unforgiveable too often.

But was angry about the impersonal.

On the outside wanting in.

Wanting out of what was inside.

Naive to much, but painfully aware.

Minute by intolerable minute, suffering days.

Ink in the pen awaiting words.

Too much to say to begin.

Waiting for purpose to reveal itself.

Waiting for that purpose fearfully excited.

Nothing was wrong, nothing was right.

She was waiting to stop waiting.

She was wanting to start wanting.

To choose indiscriminately would be disaster.

She messed up living too fast.

Homeless in fear of losing home.

Losing her mind fearing her loss.

Remembering life lived, wondering what happened.

All gone and never coming back.

Living and dying every single day.

Loving and losing every single minute.

How could she make a life?

She had to make a life.

No more crying, time to thrive.

No more excuses time to decide.

Regardless of fear, time to continue. 

Stephanie Hansen, 2009